11//Pendam

I ada masalah untuk process my emotions. 

Banyak orang yang kena cancer/strok, tak lari, mesti someone yang memendam. 

Usually orang tu ada period of grief, sedih dalam life dia. Period of suppressing their angers. 

I know kadangkala faktor pemakanan cause the illness tapi, it will never cause of makanan only. 

Emotions ada vibration yang significantly impacting our overall well-being and interactions with others. 

I just realized yang most of the time I express my anger without actually showing it. Passive aggression. 

Took a toll on my anxiety and depression for a long time. 

Interesting to learn more and more about your body everyday. Always a new thing to discover/deepen your knowledge. Alhamdulillah. 

So starting today, I belajar untuk process my emotions. I want to stop feeling resentful towards anyone yang hurt me. Boleh ke?

Kadang-kadang kata tu tak terluah, I just want to learn to let go tanpa dia trigger di kemudian hari. 

Itu lah, selalu kita belajar untuk tidak trigger orang. 

Tapi kita overlook pasal diri kita. 

Ada sesetengah benda tu trigger emosi kita. Cause a change in our attitude, demeanour, physical and mental well-being. 

 If you that close to me, you will be aware of my breathing. Banyak kali I will just tarik nafas dan hembus to relax myself first or i cakap 'takpe' a looooottt. 

Never I realised before this,yang my 'takpe' is my coping statement. 

Selalunya kalau I ada mood tiba-tiba untuk pergi spa tu, it's my way to release some of my sadness or upset with anything. 

Korang perasan kan, kalau rasa negatif or sedih or sakit hati, badan kita sakit-sakit?