Once the psychologist said, ''i believe they will provide a medication to help with a chemical imbalance yada yada''
I know everything is started to make sense.
Untuk i ingat balik the symptom started, surely it was during the covid era.
Thought that my anxiety already the worst, my baby sister had it worst than me.
That was hurt to be sad all alone. I know adik. Kakak went through the same.
That was hurt to be unheard all the time. I know adik. Kakak went through the same.
That was hurt to try to believe everything will be better. I know adik. We both went through the same.
That was hurt when you just need a hug but there was no one to console you. I know adik. When we thought we both have each other.
That was hurt when you no longer love your people the same anymore. I know adik. When we started to think that we do not want to bother anyone.
That was hurt to know you cannot talk to anyone because you feel like you are a burden to others. You are different, you are not the same anymore.
You sensed it yourself. You felt it and started to question why. why i live this neraka dunia. why i made this mistake. why people misunderstood me.
Honestly adik, kakak minta maaf sebab i was in denial. kakak minta maaf sebab indirectly i hurt you. Kakak minta maaf sebab i myself already a failure. I wish i could provide you better.
